Fixed the coding a bit and added some pages. Still more or less a work in progress but we’re getting somewhere! Also found a new fanlistings script so I don’t have to work with MySQL databases and cry :Db
Last night I didn’t do so well, but I’m feeling better today. I took a walk since it’s nice out and it cheered me up. I bought dinner and some candles so that made a huge difference.
Also, my eye makeup looks great today
Eyyyy. Pretty happy about it, even if grainy webcam photos don’t do it justice. Makeup makes me happy.
The day isn’t over yet and I still feel that sadness looming over me but at least I got out today and had some little fun moments. Hopefully I’ll have more fun things to talk about in future updates.
The layout is finished but I still need to update the CSS and fix some things here and there. Content is still yet to be added, as have my decisions for what to actually do with this site still yet to be 100% decided.
That said, I’ve applied for some fanlistings to get a little fandom part of the network started back up since I lost all of my previous ones. It’s not much, but it’s a start to get me back into the routine of web design.
Layout looks a bit wonky because my laptop isn’t really cooperative with my version of Photoshop but it’ll do.
Details to come later.
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Sometimes I really dislike myself. I compare myself to other girls and feel like nothing, in terms of looks and ability among other things. It’s stupid but it’s human and part of the horrific Depression that plagues me. I’m working so hard to overcome it and learn to love myself. And in some moments, I do, fleeting as they are, insignificant and stupid as they may be to others. Deep down, I do. I look at myself sometimes and don’t see a person, but every now and then I see me, and I am a beautiful human being in every way. I won’t let anyone, not even my Depression take that away from me. I fight everyday to keep myself, for myself.
I posted this on Instagram but then deleted it later in the midst of a Depressive episode because I felt that no one cared. But it remained on Tumblr, so I’m posting it here because it’s important.
After 4 long years, the Falling Star Network is being completely revamped. All old websites and content have been purged, including subdomains. The reason for this is that I have decided to take on an entirely new project and use hidama.net as its home.
From now on, hidama.net will be a recovery log and a hub for positivity where I will write letters of encouragement to myself, post about things that make me happy, such as personal photos, activities, and etc. New projects may arise in the form of sub-sites, and my social media will be tied in to this, as well. My aim for this website is for it to be less of a website for the enjoyment of others, and more of a personal space of my own. My goal is to use it as an outlet of positivity, to create something to help me in times when I can’t help myself. Artwork, words of encouragement, positive affirmations, playlists, whatever I feel I need to help me through hard times will all be here. Comments will be turned off because that’s not the purpose of this space. This is a safe space and I intend to keep it as such.
For now, please don’t mind the mess, this site is as much of a work in progress as I am.
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